Coke Icee. Bowl of Microwaved Popcorn.
Also known as my BFF’s. They get me through all the feelings. Both have joined me for this blog post because I am 43 shades of overwhelmed.
Friends, our adoption is FULLY funded.
We lack nothing. Not one penny. I have dreamed about the day I could say that, tweet that, post it to our Facebook wall. I imagined all the flowery words and exclamation points. But y’all? I’ve got nothing. I am stunned speechless, truly lost for the words to articulate how we feel.
There is nothing but time and a birthmother’s decision standing between us and our sweet baby. (I don’t at all mean to make light of the weight of those things, but besides them- all i’s have been dotted, all t’s have been crossed)
TWENTY-TWO THOUSAND DOLLARS in 57 DAYS.
I cannot tell you what it feels like to type that, say that.
I also cannot begin to express what it feels like to KNOW that. Can you even comprehend? Truly an act of The Father. Herschel and I left a fundraiser Saturday night and drove nearly 3 1/2 hours in total silence. Our eyes felt like faucets and our hearts were nearly raw. It's a beautiful and powerful and insanely humbling thing to be smack dab in the center of a move of God. There was NO way through this, NO WAY TO this without Him. Our prayer remains: "To you be all the glory, Lord".
And to know we have so many huddled in our corner, walking and laboring alongside us? MERCY. Outside of our salvation and our marriage, it’s quite possibly the most humbling gift The Lord has ever given us. Friends, your generosity and your sacrifice is not lost on us and we will never forget your friendship in this season. Without you- we could not experience parenthood. Those words make me weep.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. For sharing our (bajillion) status updates, for buying t-shirts, for selling Porkburgers (no idea what they are, but oh my gosh- so good!), for hosting dinners and writing songs. Thank you for wearing our story (via necklace or keychain or tee) and for marking your spaces with our pictures and stickers. Thank you for running, lifting (NIKAO Crossfitters, you are NO joke), and emptying your piggy banks. And thank you for your prayers. Oh, friends, they have carried us.
We pray that the next time your soul is full of worry, the task feels impossible, and all hope seems lost- that you will find your back to our little corner of the web and be reminded that God is beautifully and forever faithful.
So what now?
Herschel and I will stop blowing up your newsfeeds (though I pray that our story has offered respite from all the crazy). Our adoption activation agreement has been signed and our agency will officially register us as a “Waiting Family”. And wait we will. The timeline for placement is anywhere from 6 months to 1 year.
Our website will remain up because it is home to our blog (and we hope to give updates along the way), but (as of midnight tonight), our donate button and envelopes will no longer be active. For those still wanting to buy stickers, you can purchase them through our site store until they are gone (I think there are only 40ish left). For those who have messaged or texted us with desire to contribute, we would ask that instead of contributing to us, you would visit our friends, Colin and Meghan (colinandmeghan.com), and consider giving to their adoption fund. They are patiently waiting on their little one and still have $13,300 to go in their fundraising. It would be such an honor to bless them as the Pack’s blessed us!
We covet your prayers in this season of continued unknowns and welcome your encouragement as we long for our baby. We anticipate hard days and know that there are more bends and turns ahead. BUT! We are more confident than ever that we do not walk alone and that our hope is secure in the giver of all good things. We lack NOTHING.
YES AND AMEN.
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."